Once again....

Once again I turned back
Once again eyes are wet
Its again so empty
Again so dark

The weather is good
But clouds stare at me
The smile is fake again
Its again so lonely

Tearing me apart
Are all those years
The moments together
Make each breath heavier

Its just too far
Why the urge is still strong
Have thrown it out
Still living those dreams

I have felt breaking heart
Have seen it cut in half
I know what death is
Its much better than this

Life is not you
But its meaning is you
Warm blood running inside
Cooling it is you

I know what it takes
Know how to be strong
Don't know how to erase
That thing which is you

Blessed are those
Who see the end in arms
And so are those
Waiting with open arms

Trying to be happy
The pulled aparts
Cut in half
Feels like left apart

It will be off one day
Bleeding will stop that day
I want to live that day
It must be happy and gay

Will prove to world
I am right
The right man
The right choice

Will be the one
I dreamt of
Much high
Than u thought of

Once again I am committed
But for myself
Once again I will live
The best years left

Once again..